I was chatting with Matthew on the phone and halfway through i paused and said, “Do you think I’m complaining too much?”
“Yeah,” He said. “You seem to have a lot of negative comments about work now.”
Which is absolutely true. My morale, spirits, emotions have all been going downhill since my 3rd rotation (surgery) and it has upped somewhat in my current and final housemanship rotation (obs and gyn) cause my colleagues are pretty awesome and sociable. We are also on the same page on not bringing on ourselves unnecessary workload but simply do what we’re told (albeit with some grumbling).
I realised I was happiest in my 2nd rotation (paediatrics). The workload was pretty heavy with many admissions (~20-30 per night) but very much enjoyable with nice colleagues, seniors and nurses (well, most of them anyways.) But the people I worked with in 3rd and 4th, were, mean for no obvious reason, to say the very least. Maybe that’s work life and maybe that’s workplace politics that exists anywhere.
I told Matthew, “This is probably what God meant when He said:
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God – Romans 3:23
Sin is apparent everywhere and in everyone. Not just in criminals, in rapists but more so in the little things we do/NOT do to other people. And it reminds me all the more why we need God. And how easily my emotions/thoughts are affected by my environment!
Am praying that I learn how to triumph with God’s strength and wisdom and not succumb to the hostility that I am thrown into.
And besides, I will be in a different environment come July when I become a MO 😛