I accepted Christ in December 2006 in a youth camp. I felt inspired by what the pastor had to say, and I simply stood up with some others who decided to believe in Christ. No big deal. At that moment, I was expecting a wave of happiness and peace to overwhelm me but nothing “supernatural” happened.
My life went on as usual. I graduated from high school, I went to college to do my Cambridge A Levels. Life was good and I had an awesome time with my friends. My good friend, who was the one who brought me to the youth camp, would contact me occassionally and ask if I would go to church. I would go, albeit not very often, after her persistent invitations but I did not feel any different without God. I was still happy and carefree.
College ended and I had to choose my future, literally. It was then that I hit a dead end. When it came to making choices, I would take forever and I honestly did not know what I wanted, nor did I know what was right for me. I applied to numerous courses in numerous overseas universities, but I was very lost at that moment. My friends started taking their own paths, too, and I realised that there was truly nothing ever constant and definite in life.
It was then that I started to attend church regularly and almost every time, I would cry during praise and worship because it was through those songs that God was comforting me, and telling me that He would always be there for me and guide me through the darkness and uncertainty. I realised that my future was not in my hands. I would do my best, but God would do the rest.
Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. ~Psalm 119:105
Throughout the months of waiting for replies from universities (eg by checking my mail multiple times in a day), I started growing closer to God, and I got baptised a month before leaving for Uni.
God brought me to Hong Kong. Honestly, I never thought I would end up studying Medicine. I heard they only accepted 2 international students per year and though my results were good, they were easily obtained with sufficient diligence. I had near to zero participation in co-curricular activities. I was, besides doing well academically, unremarkable.
I knew I could never have done it with my own ability. So I was really thankful to God for actually letting me get through. I thought He was rewarding me for my faithfulness in Him.
Turns out that I was far from being correct. In cantonese slang, I “中伏了”. My first year was… hmm. A struggle. I missed home, my friends, and a sense of security in the people around me. Studies was hard, adapting was even harder.
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
~1 Corinthians 10:13
But God gave me a very good companion in Christ–the other applicant who made it through the interview to be my only other Malaysian classmate. She was the sweetest thing, but we had opposite personalities, and we might not have had become close friends if it were not for God who put us together. We went through tough times together, cried together, laughed together and grew closer in God together. We definitely had times when our opinions differ, but God taught us to tolerate each other and learn to understand from each other’s perspectives.
Somehow, I made it to Year 2. In fact, my year 2 is coming to an end, and when I look back, all the problems that I used to worry about seem so small now. The only thing that stands out, shining like a bright star on a clear night, is God’s grace in EVERYTHING. In every single detail of my life, I see His grace and His providence over my life.
I remember in my prayer to God when I was applying for uni, I told God that I wanted to give my life to Him. God gave me a chance to study overseas, and I now know that He was executing the perfect plan for me. And a perfect plan didn’t mean that I would lead a comfortable life, but a life that was pleasing to Him, where I would face many trials so that I would be more like Jesus.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
So despite the “trials” that I am still facing now, on a daily basis, I really hope that I can rely on God, and most importantly, count my daily blessings, and know that God is with me throughout every day of my life.
N.B. the testimony above was written around mid-2012.