sangat cemas ni

2 more days before i have my final, final, final examination for med school.

most things operate in alphabetical orders, including surnames; so that puts me in the second last batch of students sitting for an 8 station, 8 min/station medical OSCE. but by this time half of my class have already finished exams. i see them posting statuses of pure elation and relief on facebook, hear them move out of their respective rooms in the dorm. and the feeling is definitely like “argh-when-is-it-gonna-be-my-turn-the-wait-is-excruciatingggg”

so here i am in my room, reading ethics half-heartedly as i type this post and hoping everything will be well, and over, soon.

p.s. omg i just heard people pushing their luggage out of dorm.*knocks head on table’

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fighting a fight that has already been won

thank God for loving me more than i can ever deserve.


currently halfway through finals. literally just totally drained emotionally, mentally and physically from just studying and studying and forgetting and making silly mistakes in exams and falling sick and everything.Jpeg

studying with a view. 😛

well anyway we get 1 week off (woohoo!) before going through the same sequence again, but now it being practicals instead of written. hate having to go through the motions again.

but thank God for reminding me to keep my eyes on Him again! great song, great message and an even greater God.

Redeemed – Big Daddy Weave

Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight it’s already been won”

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I’m redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head”
I remember, oh God, You’re not done with me yet

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be

Because I don’t have to be the old man inside of me
‘Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I’ve got a new name, a new life, I’m not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, ’cause I’m not who I used to be

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I’m not who I used to be
Oh, God, I’m not who I used to be
Jesus, I’m not who I used to be
‘Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed