it’s weird how there is this trend of labelling our doctors-cum-tutors for our bedside teachings as “benign” or “malignant” (but then again medical students are generally weird xd) depending on whether or not they make life difficult for us. anyway we had a “malignant” tutor for our paediatrics respiratory system bedside just a few days ago and here’s an account of how it went.
So basically before the bedside teaching, our group of 10 were to watch a video on performing respiratory examination on paediatrics and then the tutor would come and bring us to the wards to perform PE on the patients. Honestly i really wanted to pee halfway through the video but i didn’t dare go lest he suddenly appear (so i actually held my bladder for almost 3 hours haha). anyway he appeared later and the moment the video ended, he was like “ok. let’s go!”. which kind of caught us unprepared and we literally ran after him while fumbling to put on our white coats.
and then we were at the paediatrics ward. 14 year old male with pectus carinatum (indicating chronic respiratory problem) and also mild finger clubbing. the doc asked if anyone wanted to do PE but everyone obviously avoided eye contact and he randomly picked a guy from our group. and that basically sealed his fate of being the only student being drilled for ANYTHING he did/did not do/say for his general and also respiratory examination. we would get scolding if we tried to help the poor guy with answering any of the questions. the doc was also extremely particular about hand hygiene (eg wash again if we pushed our glasses up or flicked our hair away with our hands)
But at the end of the day we realised he was an awesome doctor. He revealed that he often acted mad/bitchy just to make sure the message sunk in to whichever student he taught (and he’s actually quite a funny person and treats patients really really well!! ^^) We couldn’t help our friends becase he wanted that particular student to really think and get answers through logical deduction, instead of the usual round-the-table answering methods that would actually diffuse the responsibility each felt as a bedside “participant”. As for the hand hygiene part, it is actually for doctors own good and (especially) for immunocompromised patients.
so this kind of misconception of “tumour subtypes” of our tutors somewhat bothers me; because to me he is far from the definition of malignant. all i can see is a dedication. to patients, to students and to medicine. and aren’t these what constitutes a good doctor?
Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
~ Matthew 7:1-3
Thank God for opening my eyes and teaching me new things every day. :’)