i was re-reading the posts on my old blog, up to when i posted a checklist of what i did before coming to Hong Kong back in 2010.
it takes a while for my own words to sink in, for some of the old memories to resurface. some scenes of the past get mentally re-enacted and i get reminded of the things i felt at that time.
i saw the enthusiasm and apprehension that i had, 3 years back, of starting my undergraduate life in Hong Kong.
i saw how uni life seemed to me at the start, the stress of studying 4-5 hours a day (i think i topped it by studying on an average of 12 hours daily during study break in year 2), the emotional attachment with my college friends and how much i missed them in the early period of being abroad.
i saw that i began to see hypocrisy, superficial friendships and ties, how different people got different treatment, all in the society that i was put in. in other words, i was beginning to see the world as it was.
i saw that i was determined not to be the same, to remain as honest and pure as i could in a world i deemed to be evil and corrupt.
(on a less serious note) i was reminded of my “chibi maruko chan” look back in year 1.
i look back and see how much God let me experience. and how things that seemed so important back can be just a distant memory, with only strands of emotions attached to it. but through it all, God’s love and grace only gets amplified year by year.
was listening to this cantonese worship song today and thought it represented my thoughts well. even though i still don’t get why God works the way He does sometimes, He has performed enough miracles in my life to make me believe in His word and His ways.
for He said in all things, God works for the good of those who love him (Romans 8:28)
神 我的一生 神你定有預備
神 我的一生 神你定有預備