just a quick one.

thank God for a wonderful birthday this year =) had some surprises, some warm wishes from friends that i haven’t contacted in a while, quality time with close friends and a phone call from mom and dad and bro.

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attended a joint university fellowship yesterday night and the topic was revival aka to reignite the burning fire in us, for Christ. Watched a video (click here) about a father carrying his disabled son through various marathons etc. it was actually the 2nd time watching the same video and a sudden realisation dawned, and it hit me hard.

I guess I thought I was doing pretty well, serving God in church, in fellowship and also learning more about Him through BSF.

But the video of a father carrying his crippled son reminded me of how broken I truly am. That i never deserved the love of a holy, righteous Heavenly Father, more so to actually say that I can do anything for Him. Anything I do can never compare with what He has done for me.

Because He carries me through life. and if that father could love his son that much, how much more does God love me?

But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith.  – Philippians 3:7-9

Lead me to the Cross – Hillsong

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you’re risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

like the stars

Shine like the stars of the universe as you hold out the Word of Life. 

There is a strange power, conviction and humility about this phrase (adapted from Phil 2:15-16).

Stars are beautiful things. Nomads used them to find their way through plains and deserts of nothingness, ships to navigate through the rough seas, and city people who see more street lights than stars everyday to appreciate the greatness of Creation, and the vastness of the universe.

When I consider your heavens,
    the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
    which you have set in place,
what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
    human beings that you care for them?
You have made them a little lower than the angels
   and crowned them with glory and honor.

~ Psalm 8: 3-5

And to be a star, was not about being able to stand out of the crowd. but rather be one; just one of the many beautiful stars in the sky. to guide the ships and nomads. to remind people of the beauty of the universe. for it is not us that is important. It is the Word of Life, the wonderful Truth that is both Righteous and Merciful that the stars are a channel to. To the One both condemns and saves.

Don’t know. Anyway I just like this phrase a lot lah full stop.

Went for my first BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) class just a few days ago.

I first heard of BSF through my mom’s friend back in Malaysia, and later another close Hong Kong friend of mine Tina asked me about the same bible study group and so I thought it was about time for me to answer my nagging conscience to find out more.

Tina and I went for the welcoming session. apparently it consists of year-long study of a single book/theme, with a total of 9 different themes aka you will finish the whole BSF courses if you join them for 9 consecutive years. This year will be on the book of Matthew.

Apparently they only accepted a limited number of group members (due to limited number of group leaders? idk) at a time so they asked us to pray for God’s right timing. I heard that some people even waited up to a year before they got called to join and so I thought my chances were slim. If they called me next year, I probably couldn’t commit as it would overlap with some of my time working as a house officer (and I bet I won’t even have time to sleep moreover attend classes)

But anyway my group leader called me on Saturday night (lessons every Mon night) and told me I could join them.

Initially I was really excited but later got stressed when I found out about the workload. We would have homework every day (eg answering questions based on specific parts of the Bible/scriptures) and some questions were not that straightforward. and there were notes to read as well. so yeah very very the chur （hk slang for heavy workload)

But honestly! I have only been to one class so far but I guess what amazes me the most is the conviction I see among the young adults who attend BSF. Some are working, some still studying but all of them were so committed. And their love and hunger for God encourages me. As for the lesson materials, it digs deep into the characters of the Bible, the background in which it was written, etc etc. To me, it’s not superficial godtalk. It’s serious yet humble investigation of the Truth.

So I guess it all boils down to proper time management. If I stop facebooking and instagramming and youtubing I will have far more time to study. (but cannot stop blogging lah. it’s therapeutic! read here about what cs lewis thinks about writing)

so i was thinking about fasting from these things. got the idea from Wai Jia’s blog, you can read it here. and hope it doesnt stay at the contemplation stage but moves on to the action stage. God give me the strength to do it ushhhhhh!

But anyway. BSF is HIGHLY recommended! Good training for commitment in studying His words and dying to unfruitful habits! haha

If you’re interested to find out more about BSF or wish to join BSF at your locality (it’s international), click here.